When I left highschool, I jumped straight into a double degree of Arts and Law. After persevering for 2 years, I realised that I really, really did not like studying Law. I really enjoyed all of my subjects at school so it was the first time that I was studying something that I didn't enjoy.
And it really disheartened me. I could not work out why I was struggling and why I just couldn't remember anything of what I was taught. I had no interest in Law. So I made a bold decision to change my university and change my degree.
Cue 2012. I moved to a big university in the city and began studying Arts and Education. I felt like I was on a more correct track than previously. Except... I hated the university. And the people who went there. And the lecturers. I felt so insignificant and when I asked for help, no one answered me. I wasn't inspired or motivated to learn.
Thinking about staying at that university for another 4 years literally made me cry. There was no way that I would have the mental strength to do that. I was mentally, physically and emotionally drained. So I made another bold decision. I decided that I wanted to go back to my old university and simplify my degree.
I applied to study just Arts at my old university. When I say Arts, by the way, I'm referring to social science. The other arts is called Creative Arts. Since day one, I have loved studying English at university. So I decided that I would skip the whole double degree thing, because whilst I liked education and the concept of teaching, my heart wasn't 100% in that either.
I am so thankful and lucky to have been accepted back into my old university. I found out a couple of days ago and have just been letting it sink in. I genuinely felt that I would not get offered a place. Now that I have though, I am going to make the absolute most of it.
I am going to major in English and in Public Relations. I love English and I'm really interested in PR so I'm going to bite the bullet, ignore those voices (real and imagined) that don't think I can do this and just pursue my passions.
Hopefully this will help me get closer to what I want to achieve in life. Already though I feel relieved and confident. Uni doesn't start back for over a month but I know this mindset will carry through until then.
I am so excited for 2013 to be the start of following my passions. What will this year bring for you? Are you pursuing your passion?